I started having the sinking feeling a few days ago that our IVF did not work, and it was confirmed with blood work yesterday. Despite having what seemed like such a perfect IVF cycle, it just didn't work. AF is here with a vengeance today, so bad that Vicodin isn't even squashing all of the pain. My eyes are still swollen from crying so much last night, and my liver is cursing me just as loudly I'm sure. I am just so. completely. worn. out.
However....
-I am grateful that I had a couple of close friends who let me cry on their shoulder and really stepped up and made sure I wasn't alone yesterday.
-I am grateful that my hubby decided to fly home a day early and arrives home tonight.
-I am grateful that we have 5 good looking frozen embryos just waiting for a chance to be given life.
-I am grateful that my RE called me to talk today, and I still feel confident I am in really good hands.
-I am grateful that even though this is a really hard blow on many levels, that I still have the resolve to pick myself up, dust myself off, and keep trying.
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We will just have to put one foot in front of the other and try again. I'm not sure if we'll go straight into a FET cycle or take a month long break to re-charge mentally first, but we are not giving up. That I know for sure.
However....
-I am grateful that I had a couple of close friends who let me cry on their shoulder and really stepped up and made sure I wasn't alone yesterday.
-I am grateful that my hubby decided to fly home a day early and arrives home tonight.
-I am grateful that we have 5 good looking frozen embryos just waiting for a chance to be given life.
-I am grateful that my RE called me to talk today, and I still feel confident I am in really good hands.
-I am grateful that even though this is a really hard blow on many levels, that I still have the resolve to pick myself up, dust myself off, and keep trying.
We will just have to put one foot in front of the other and try again. I'm not sure if we'll go straight into a FET cycle or take a month long break to re-charge mentally first, but we are not giving up. That I know for sure.